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Halsey has opened up about her ordeal after falling pregnant before suffering from a miscarriage whilst on tour. 

The Badlands star and Justin Bieber collaborator was speaking to Rolling Stone when she revealed how she became pregant while out on the road last year, and the torment of the choices she faced at the time. 

"What happens?" she asked herself. "Do I lose my record deal? Do I lose everything? Or do I keep [the pregnancy]? What are the fans going to think? What are the moms going to think? What is the Midwest going to think? What's fucking everyone going to think?"

Then, things took a tragic turn for the worse when she lost her child in a hotel room - but continued to play live on stage that same night. She calls in what she calls 'the angriest performance that I've ever done in my life'. 

"That was the moment of my life where I thought to myself, 'I don't feel like a fucking human being any more'," she admitted. "This thing, this music, Halsey, whatever it is that I'm doing, took precedence and priority over every decision that I made regarding this entire situation from the moment I found out until the moment it went wrong. I walked offstage and went into the parking lot and just started throwing up."

She added that she 'beat herself up' over the 'lifestyle she was living'.

"I wasn't drinking. I wasn't doing drugs," she said. "I was fucking overworked – in the hospital every couple of weeks because I was dehydrated, needing bags of IVs brought to my green room. I was anaemic, I was fainting. My body just broke the fuck down.

"I had a choice. I want to be a mom more than I want to be a pop star. More than I want to be anything in the world."

Halsey then took to Twitter to thank fans for their support, and add that she was 'looking forward to the possibilities the future will bring me in having my own family':

Those of you who have tweeted me kind things, thank you for your support.

— h (@halsey) July 28, 2016

Those of you turning this into an opportunity to bully me: I'd say I hope you understand one day but I wouldn't wish this upon anyone.

— h (@halsey) July 28, 2016

It was a year ago and I am growing past it and I am looking forward to the possibilities the future will bring me in having my own family. 🌹

— h (@halsey) July 28, 2016

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